THIS ONE GONNA'S BRUISE

Do you even know what's going on in a heart anymore
Constellations turned into little polaroids in a cardboard box
And I wanted so desperately to prove
You were still breathing but wouldn't move
Okay, okay what a thing to choose this one's gonna bruise
You'll learn one day won't you
What you want is bad for the souls in the rain
Afraid of the dark still in pain still in pain

Did you ever notice how the wind didn't change that much
Fluctuations only sheets that you moved to be sure it was us
And I wanted so desperately to say
That you could trust me but I was lying anyway
okay, okay what a thing to lose
Left out in the rain, misuse
You'll learn one day won't you
You'll learn some day won't you
What you had was good for a while then it changed
Got too intense made it strange
And I feel bad for you I feel bad for you
But I don't know why I don't know why
Cos I'm as dead as you

Written by: Ryan Adams
Album version on: Daybreaker

Written especially by Ryan Adams for Beth Orton. Originally titled OK and was changed to What You Want but appeared on the album as This One's Gonna Bruise. Read what Orton has to say about this song:

"I heard Heartbreaker which is his first solo album. There's a record shop in London called Rough Trade Records and often I go down there on a Saturdays with some friends and buy some records. We look through the racks and they all suggest things. Oh I got this and this. All my DJ friends are all across the board. One week they'll say "Oh, I got this Ryan Adams and you have to get it." Oh, cool. Thought it was some old bloke. Went home and put it on. It was a great record. I was surprised that there was someone in my generation who was like this.

I also like Lucinda Williams, Emmylou Harris, and Dolly Parton. They just move me. Well, Johnny Marr sang backup vocals on "Concrete Sky" on the demo but he was on tour with someone else by the time it came to record it. We called up Ryan Adams and he was up for it and it was brilliant. He came over and we went into the studio. He put the vocal down and then he put some guitar and piano down and that was great. Then he played me some song that he had and it just blew me away. He wrote the song about some girl. And I could relate because I was in a similar situation.

I learned it and then I was like "I have to record that song!" We did one take and that take is on the album. We met and our voices go beautifully together. It's called "What You Want (re-titled later to This One's Gonna Bruise)" and it's going to be on the album. It's very beautiful and very magical."